Yep, I’ve got it…gestational diabetes.  I failed the first and second draw after the glucose drink.  Fasting and third values were ok.   I don’t know why, but it caused me to break down a bit today.  I guess between that diagnosis and all of the pent-up nerves, boredom and aggregation that bed rest causes I went into overload.  I’m not complaining, but I guess this diagnosis put me over the edge.  I’ve been reading about it.  Some things worry me, but in general, I feel if I can keep the blood sugar in control, baby and I will be ok.  I go for an instructional meeting next Wed and will be meeting with a nutritionist.   I wonder why I have it, but think it may be the bedrest (no exercise), the fact that I gained a lot in the first tri, my AMA, and the fact that my paternal grandma had type 2 GD.

Had a US yesterday and the tech said everything was perfect for where I am – 27w3d.   Head is still down and will most likely stay that way.  My cervix measured longer for some reason – 2.4cm.  The tech said she’s seen that happen and chalked it up to being on bedrest.  After that I met with my OB and she said everything looked great but had no explanation for the increased cervical length.  She said she’d never seen that before, but we’ll take it.  She said maybe the baby is more up in my abdomen and putting less pressure on the cervix (but that doesn’t make sense either because the head is down).  I asked if I may be a candidate for a vaginal delivery and she said yes, definitely.   That’s pretty neat because I always thought the baby would be breached due to my UU.  She said she will be watching my cervical length to determine if she thinks steroids are still warranted for lung development, should I have a preterm delivery.   From what I am reading, it seems like these decisions may be impacted by the GD.  I guess I’ll have a lot of questions for my OB come next week (still have weekly appts with her). 

DH hasn’t found out anything about the ct scan yet.  He finally called today since it was a week ago now that the scan was done.  The lady said his doctor was on vacation and wouldn’t get back until next Thur.  Can you believe that?!?!?  I threw a fit on the phone with him.  I asked him to call back and tell her you want your results and to find out if there is an affiliate in his office who could share the results.  DH agreed, but then said either way, he’s going to have questions for his doctor and that they usually don’t like to take over another patient’s case.  So, we wait until Thur.  It’s an underlying worry that is always on my mind. 

I’m getting my registry going.  If any of you have a few “must haves” let me know.  I got a nice list from scottsdalehopeful (thanks, girlfriend).   It seems the most overwhelming choice is the stroller….there are just too  many options based on your lifestyle, etc! 

This is sort of a “hanging in there” type post.  I need to control my mind to stay in a good place and not go to those bad places.  I think a walk outside is warranted.  Bye for now…going out into the sunshine!


Life’s Uncertainty

I can’t believe it’s almost been 2 week since my last post.  I saw soulshine’s reply asking how I was and thought I should update.

Truth is, I’ve had some things happen that have taken the wind from my sail a bit.

I’m nervous about my husband.  About 6 years ago he was diagnosed with bladder cancer.   He never smoked, and didn’t have exposure to chemicals that could have caused it, so it was really a shocker, especially at his young age.  He just had surgery to remove the small growth, no chemo.  It didn’t invade the bladder wall, just surface.  Everything has been fine since then, all followup tests have been clear.  This past week he had to go for his annual scope and when he was done he called me and said that although the doctor didn’t find anything that he has to go for a ct scan.  Apparently, weeks ago, he saw some stuff when he peed, like he did when it was first discovered.  He called the doctor, but he said to wait until his appt this past week.  He said he didn’t tell me when he saw the stuff because figured I had enough to worry about.  During the appt, the doctor said that all looked clear, but because DH said he saw something the doctor wants to see if there is anything in the kidneys or ureter.  He’s going in for that on Friday this week.   The type he was diagnosed with back then has a high chance of reoccurrence, but a low chance of invading other areas of the body.   I’m so worried…we won’t know the results until the week after next. 

I failed my screening for gestational diabetes and need to go for the 3-hr diagnostic test.  I’ll talk with my doctor on Thursday, my next appt.  Of course I’ve read a lot about it.   A good majority of people who screen positive don’t actually have GD.  I hope I’m in that group.  From what I read though, it’s really not that bad to manage.  I’d have to check my sugar 4 times each day and have a strict diet.  If that’s all I have to do, I’ll be fine with that.  I wonder if my test was skewed because of the tic-tacs I had on the way to the test.  My friend told me she screened positive but then was fine.  She said she had mints beforehand and her doctor said that could have caused the sugar to spike more.  The other weird thing that happened to me is that I felt sweaty and like I was going to faint around 12 pm that day.  I had a whole grain english muffin that morning with decaf, had the fructose drink at 820a, test at 920a, then my Mom and I went on a few errands (I stayed in the car).  I had a granola bar around 10ish and was feeling very hungry by 1130…the time that I felt sweaty and faint.  I recall my grandma, who had regular diabetes, getting that way when she had low blood sugar.  So, I thought maybe it may have had a sugar crash from the test and from not eating much.  But, maybe that is a first sign of having GD.  I guess I’ll find out.

The other thing that is consuming me is my friends, best friend, husband and 4 kids, who are like family to me, lost their dog on Friday.  Their dog was a crazy lab named Jeter (they are diehard fans).  Really a De.nnis the Menna.ce type, always getting into everything, but a great, lovable, goofy dog.  He used to stay with us when they went away.  Ms. Mae loved him.   Well, my friend has been having a problem with mice so she got her bug man to put in some poison.  It was buried and supposedly, per the guy, nothing that a kid or dog could get into.  Soon after the guy installed them, she noticed her dog was eating something and went outside.  He dug up one of them and had been eating it.  She rushed him to the vet and they induced vomiting, then gave him charcoal to absorb the poison.  The vet assured her that it was common and that thing would be ok.  She had left her dog there to be monitored.  At 2 pm all was well and they said he’d be able to go home soon.  Then, she got a call around 3pm and the vet told her the dog collapsed and that she should come down.  She and her husband (luckily he was home early that day) rushed there and that was it, he died.  The vet said that she’s never seen this happen and that there must have been an underlying condition that caused his death.  I feel so sad and heartbroken for them.  It’s hard not to blame yourself for something like that.   We went there on Fri night for a while.   It was horrible.   Her husband hasn’t stopped crying since.  The dog was only 6.5 yrs old.  I know how I feel about him because I loved him, too, but imagine the way they feel.  I guess all we can do from this type of thing is take a lesson.  Ms. Mae is gonna miss her buddy, even though he used to antagonise her. 

So, as you can see, I’m a bit sad lately.  But, still trying to stay normal for all of us.  The little peanut is kicking up a storm.  I love that.  My cervix measured 1.45cm last Thur, so effectively unchanged.   The heartbeat has been in the 130s-140s.   Does anyone believe that old wives tale…the lower heartbeat ranges are boys and the higher heartbeat ranges are girls?  My friend and I did the gender predic.tor a few weeks back but it was only right for 2/4 of her kids.   I know I could ask and we could find out, but I still want to be surprised. 

I’ve been thinking of doing a mural in peanut’s future room.  I have a hard time letting myself go there, still.  I am 26 weeks tomorrow, but really think I’m going to wait until 28 wks to do anything.   Since I can’t do much, I’ve been looking at stencils and premade murals (like wallpaper) online, thinking that maybe DH could do it.  Then I thought, I live in RI, let me googl.e R.I. Schoo.l of and murals.  Well, I happened upon an artist’s website.  She had a link for murals she created….and this was one of them….

….it is exactly what I have been thinking of/looking for!  I emailed her, she replied with her number, and I called her.   She has done a few murals for a child’s room and someone’s living room, but mainly does work for children’s hospitals (the one above was for that), small businesses, etc., on a part time basis.   She said she’d love to do a mural for us.  So, I’m thinking about it…it’s exactly what I’d want.  Just got to wait to see how things go over the next few weeks with DH and the peanut. 

After all I’ve been through, it’s strange how I still seem to have a hard time with the ups and downs of life.  But, I keep praying and hoping.


…I reached 24 weeks.

…my DH and I celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary. 

…I went to the OB because I had some tightness and different discharge (all was ok).

…I got bad news about an issue at work on my project that really got to me.

…Ms Mae threw up on her walk with DH after hacking a bit the night before.

It was one of those days where you get to feel the extents of your emotions.   It wasn’t a plain old vanilla day.  It had happiness, concern, anxiety, aggregation, nervousness, and contentment.  Some days just go like that.  

Today was more even keel, but …if I could only squash that concern over the work issue.  It lingered into today and will linger into tomorrow.  I tried to tell myself not getting worked up.  The guys at work don’t want me to get stressed in my state.  But, it’s tough.  I shouldn’t be as concerned because we got someone to fill in my on-site roll and he’s getting up to speed quickly, but I do.  I really take ownership of my projects and want the client to be happy.   The thing is it’s such a high stress project right now with a tight schedule.  It’s really good that I’m not there in the thick of it. 

I’m getting more and more worried about little Ms. Daisy Mae.  She’s doing fine, but I see things changing.  I also can’t gauge the coughing thing.  We brought her in for that a month or so ago and the vet couldn’t find anything wrong.  She did say she was having some narrowing in the throat and that it’s common.  She said hers wasn’t that bad.  So, maybe something scratched her throat.  She’s been fine today…only hacked a few times.  She’s my little buddy and I know that things can just start creeping up considering her age.  Bless her little heart! 

DH had flowers delivered to me yesterday…beautiful red roses with little white flowers w/ yellow centers in between.  We got takeout from one of our favorite local restaurants and had a nice dinner at home.  He got me a bronze faucet for outside; the handle has a hummingbird shape.  It’s quite unique and is a traditional gift for 7 years.  He always follows the traditional gift listing (maybe it makes it easier on him).  It is copper or wool for 7 yrs.  I couldn’t come up with anything in those categories this year, so I got him an L.L raincoat.  At least he’ll keep dry in the April showers.

On the pregnancy front, I’m beginning to think that I’m getting some Bra.xton Hic.ks contractions.  Today the belly isn’t as tight as the last few days.  I wonder if the P17 shots are helping.  I get them on Sundays, so I’m thinking the cramps/tightness I got on Sun/Mon could have been because I needed the next dose of P17 and that it may take a while to get into my system.  It seems that I feel best between Tue – Sat.  Who knows, just a trend I’m watching.

We started taking some pictures…but none with both of us together yet.  Maybe Easter.  Here are some belly shots from the last few days.  I need to try to watch what I eat a bit more because I’m so sedentary on bedrest.  I’ve gained about 22 lbs already…yikes….and they suggest 25-35 lbs the whole pregnancy!  I’ve slowed it down a bit lately, but need to keep it up.  My bottom has widened a good bit in addition to the belly and bbs! 🙂