Sleep Training

Did I ever go through sleep training?  I doubt it.  My mom was 26 when she had me and had a little toddler, my brother, running around at 9 months (we both walked early).  She didn’t read books.  She just nurtured.

Why do I feel so much pressure that by 6 weeks our little bundle of joy needs to be in some sleep training program? 

I know it will only help us in the long run.  We long for the 7-8 hrs sleep we used to get.  But, it seems like an insurmountable task.  Plus, there are so many opinions out there, running the gamut between “cry it out” to baby directed sleeping using props/aides to make them sleep. 

Don’t get me wrong, I’m definitely not complaining…I just feel a bit overwhelmed.  I think we will be somewhere in between.  I’m about to read Baby.wise and may order one that Cassie recommended, too, called “Hea.lthy S.leep Ha.bits He.althy Ch.ild.    My SIL said she read both and used what she thought was good from both books.   A few other people also recommended Baby.wise. 

Right now he is in his little Rock-and-Play sleeper (which I love) in the next room, sleeping away after a good feeding.  Per Babywis.e he, should be playing for a bit after feeding prior to sleep (my bad?).  He’ll get his bath when he gets up and we’ll drag the rock and paly thing upstairs because he seems to like it much better than the bassinet.  He is a bit stuffy and is starting to spit up a bit, so it seems to help him.  My ped says it’s ok for him to sleep in there.  In a few weeks we’ll transition to the crib (I think?). 

I am a nervous nelly.  I wish I wasn’t.  I’ve called my ped and the “war.m lin.e” that is offered by my hospital (nurses on call to answer any baby or mommy related questions post partum) several times.  Since the stuffiness and grunting (trying to clear) is bothering me, we may take him to have his lungs checked tomorrow.  

It’s funny, as you all know, I spent so much time thinking about staying pregnant and about the health of my baby that I didn’t spend much time preparing for actually being a mom.  I know it will come in time.  I know that I will do well.   It’s just new territory and I want to make sure I’m doing the best I can for my son.  

In between the worry and sleeplessness, we get our moments.  The moments that fill my heart with such love.  This morning I was singing to him while holding him and he looked so relaxed, contented, and was smiling at me.  Maybe he’s trying to say, “Mom you are doing ok”

Edited to add:  just noticed I hadn’t posted since he was 2 weeks….he’s almost 5 weeks (on Tue) and is growing and gaining weight well.  At his 4 wk appt last Mon he had gained 3 oz/day on average from the last time.  He was 8 lbs 6 oz.  I bet he is well over 9 lbs now.   We are taking him in today to have the stuffiness checked so we’ll see then.


2w appt

Hi…I have yet to get to that birth story.  I want to document it for the peanut, too, so I know it will get done sometime, hopefully before he is 1!

He has been gaining quite well…he was 6lbs 12 oz yesterday, gaining 2 oz/ day on average this last duration between weigh ins.  So, he must be getting enough milk.  In fact, I think I have too much milk.  I’m pretty much exclusively feeding off the breast.  I had to pump in the hospital because he had some latch issues then and was loosing too much weight (and also because of the slight jaundice he had).  I pumped the other day when I went to the hair dresser.  I pumped the other night just to empty out.  I get about 4-5 oz for 2 breasts over 15-20 mins.  My docs and the Warm Line nurses say it’s great….so, I’m happy with that.  I just wonder if my milk lets down too fast.  Sometimes he cries just before a feeding and I wonder if he is thinking, “here we go again, get ready for a flood”.  He’s eating every 2-3 hrs and at night I’m trying to extend the duration but have only gotten him to 3 hrs.  From what I hear, this adjustment period takes a while as he and I are getting used to the process. 

He’s also grown to 20.25″ from 18.5″ at birth and his head is growing well.  The ped is happy with everything, so that gives me comfort. 

Sleep….how I wish.  We had a good night last night where I got 3 2-hr naps and I felt refreshed today.   The night before was horrible…I was up ALL NIGHT.  I think he was/is going through a growth spurt and/or was cluster feeding.   Every night I don’t know what I’m going to get.  I’m looking forward to a good 4-hr sleep.  We’re going to try a bottle feed at night with DH and I’ll pump early and go to bed early and hopefully between that and the next feeding I can get 3.5-4 hrs solid.  We’ll see.

My Daisy needs more of my attention.  DH still walks her everyday.  He was home with me until today.  He really took care of me and the house while home.  Gonna seriously miss that.  My Mom came over today to help and give me a break.   Friends, relatives and neighbors have been so generous, coming over with food and gifts for the peanut.  I can’t get in my yard.  My flowers, shrubs, and roses need my attention, but they’ll just have to accept that they will look good next year!

updated to add picture of daddy playing with the peanut and daisy mae getting in on the scene.  she loves her human brother.

Picture Updates

Pictures from today…working on a more detailed birth story for my next post…

Baby News

Hi Everyone,

Just a quick post to update you……we welcomed our baby boy to the world on 6/26 at 10:27am!  He is awesome and we are all fine. 

 I will post later with details….but, in summary I went in for the cerclage removal and I was already dilated 2-3cm….took out the cerclage and went to 4 cm, had contractions and got to 8-9, stalled at 9, went fully open, or so we thought, and started pushing at 6am on 6/26….baby didn’t come, checked cervix again and it was 7cm somehow (with change of doctors could have been different opinion)….so, we had to go for c-section.  

He was born at 5 lbs 15 oz, 18-1/2″ long. 

I am in love.

Hope everyone is doing well!


Just a short post tonight.  More later in the week, if possible.

Tomorrow I’ll be 36w, 1w away from full term.  I simply cannot believe it. 

I will get my cerclage out tomorrow in the OB’s office.  I’ve heard this can hurt because sometimes tissue grows around the cerclage, but hopefully it won’t be too bad.   My OB thinks I may dilate a bit more but that it’s unlikely I’ll go into labor as a result of the removal.  I had to see a different OB last week and he told me that in all his years of practice he’s never seen someone go right after a cerclage removal.   Rather, he said most of the time some scar tissue forms and it acts as preventative.  He said if I go, I’ll be the first he’s seen.  I put more stuff in my bag just in case.

Daisy is having a harder time with the heat.  We are getting her checked on Tue for laryngeal paralysis (sp?)…thanks for the tip, soulshine.  She also yelped tonight and lifted her left paw up.  We’ll also check her for lyme (even though she is vaccinated and on Fr.ontline).   I wish I could have her around forever!!!

L&D Tips for the Worrier?

I’ve been thinking a lot about labor and delivery lately.  Maybe because I’m 34w, maybe because my cerclage is coming out at 36w, maybe because the baby is getting bigger and I can feel more pressure, etc.   Little peanut has got to come out somehow.  I know that.   I know I can look forward to the moment he/she is in my arms.  I know I can handle it, but, I worry.  I am a worry wart.  I worry about everything.   We did not take any classes because I wouldn’t let myself believe until 24 weeks, then really believe until 28 weeks.  My OB says that it doesn’t matter that we didn’t take a class.  She said they will guide me through everything.  I still worry.  Do any of you have any advice/ stories you want to share? 

For stats, I’m 34w1d today.  Baby measured on track last week and was estimated at 4lbs12oz.   The NST’s have been good.  I have them 2x/wk now due to a recommendation from MFM since I have GD.  I don’t mind…it’s cute to hear the “galloping horses in water” heartbeat sound. 

In other news, the artist is making progress with the mural in the nursery, but not as much as I had hoped.  She says she will be here at 6pm but she comes close to 8pm.  She says she may come tomorrow and then never calls or texts.  She does her own thing.  I love how it is coming out.  She’s doing a fantastic job.  But, I need to somewhat plan.  I emailed her today, no response yet.  I told her that things could start happening once the cerclage is out and then at that point, she won’t be able to come for a bit.  I told her that the baby will be in our bedroom for a little while in the beginning; heck, the crib won’t be here for another 2-3 weeks anyway.  But, once that baby comes, it will be crazy here.  I don’t want to push her because I want her to feel good and inspired when she comes here so she does her best job.  But, geez, maybe it’s because she’s young or because she’s an artist and is used to dealing in the abstract.  Who knows.  

Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the beginning of the summer.  The grass and flowers always look good now.  Here’s a picture of my peonies and a bearded iris from a few weeks ago:

32w tomorrow

Sometimes I really can’t believe it, but I’ll be 32w tomorrow!  Seems like time has flown by since 24w, and since 28w.   4 weeks ago I was 28w, which seems like yesterday, so does that mean I’ll snap my finger and, dare say, be 36w?  I better get ready for this baby!

We had a little excitement this week – a hospital visit and my shower yesterday.

First, the hospital visit.

I had a bit of blood on my pantyliner on Tue morning, so we went to the ER.  I didn’t have any contractions, but thought it was the right thing to do.  It pretty much had stopped by the time they examined me.  They found no active source for the bleed, either via manual exam of the cervix/cerclage or via ultrasound (question whether or not my placenta moved or something).  There were no signs of active labor.  At first, the ER doc thought my cervix was a bit softened and dialated to 1 cm, but then the US showed the same cervical length of 1.6cm.  There was some differing opinions of whether or not there was a change or whether I was just dialated by the diameter of my cerclage (and always have been).  The OB that was on call from my practice wanted me to get the steroid shot, so I did, putting up not fight.  I figured I should get it in the event that this little bleed was some strange warning sign.  Since the shots (2 – 24 hrs apart) would elevate my blood sugar, their standard practice is that you stay there for 24 hrs beyond the second shot.  This is mainly because most people need some insulin after the shot and because they want to see how you do with the insulin.  This kept me there until Thur mid-day.   When I was discharged, I felt like I was being let out of prison.  To me, it seemed like overkill.  During my stay,  I did need insulin twice.  Their diabetic diet is much more liberal than I’ve been doing at home, so that may be another contributor as to why my numbers were high.  As of Thur afternoon (at home), my blood sugar control has been back to diet alone (although I may need a different, longer acting, insulin soon b/c my fasting numbers are just over their threshold – an issue I had before the steroid shots). 

I learned a few things in that visit…the new area for pregnant women being monitored is similar to the new L&D area.  The rooms are huge!, with plenty of space in the private bathroom, etc.  The beds are comfortable, but the pillows not so much.  I will probably take a pillow from home.   We also learned our little peanut already has hair!  How cute is that! …and her/his estimated weight as of Tue was 4lbs1oz with measurements right on track.  So, baby is doing well in my little ute.

Changing subjects to my shower…what a surreal experience.  I couldn’t believe I was going to my baby shower.  I still can’t believe I did.  Especially when I look at all the stuff in my office now.  We had a great time.  I ended up making a speech.  I thought I could do it without crying, but once I got to the second sentence, I lost it.  It took a few seconds, but I got myself somewhat together before continuing.  It wasn’t long, but the words, those emotions, the joy and pain all wrapped into one.  I wanted to summarize my experience and express my gratitude for everyone’s love and support.  I felt sadness/guilt for my aunts and family friends who couldn’t have kids and especially for my friend that I mentioned a few posts ago, who drove 3+ hrs to come to my shower.   My mom said something after me, but she somewhat lost it, too.  So much from so many years.  As you all know, 7 years and counting.  

It was also uplifting to hear stories from people of how they hoped for us for so long.  Sometimes we feel that people don’t notice the pain and anxiety we are going through during treatment or waiting for a match or waiting for a stroke of luck, but they really do.  They just don’t always know what to say. 

I didn’t dwell on those thoughts, however, I really enjoyed it.   People kept telling me that I’m all baby….well, I really don’t have my will power to attribute that to, I told them it is the GD diet.  My SIL is pregnant now and she keeps saying she wants to get on that diet.   I’ve been about the same weight for 5 weeks or so.  The baby is taking what it needs, my belly is getting bigger, and taking all the fat away from the other areas, such as my butt.  My doctor told me this happens with a lot of her GD patients….they stay the same for a while, maybe even losing a bit towards the end, and then don’t have as much to lose when the baby comes.  I guess if there is a silver lining to this, that must be it.   I don’t have all the pictures from the shower yet, but here’s one of me with my mom (sometimes I don’t know why I don’t put the whole picture up here, but something holds me back).  

We got a lot of good stuff.  People were so generous.   I know a lot of people would have preferred to know the gender to get the “perfect gift” but I just can’t help but think that this whole thing was a huge surprise and I want to keep it that way.  

So, now we will take stock of what we have and then determine what we need, especially for the first few months.  We’ll be making a run to Walmart or BJ’s to get Dr.eft, diapers, wipes, etc, and I’ll be putting my bag together soon.  Although I feel great, I know that there’s no telling when things will start happening.   🙂

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